Writing “The End”

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I imagine all artists – writers, painters, composers – come to a place in their work when they (in one form or another) jot down those two words: “The End.”

Naturally, the end of a first draft isn’t the END. There are months of rewrites and edits ahead. The collection of words I’ve tallied up on my laptop is still a work-in-progress.

But the story is done. The plot has wrapped up. The characters have completed their arcs and in some cases have died. Even my happy endings don’t come without pain, suffering, and loss. They are always bittersweet.

When I write “The End,” it’s emotional. As I scribble this post, days after penning that last line, my eyes gloss with feeling. And there’s no single reason.

“The End” comes with a sigh of relief and a wish to tell someone the powerful news. It’s a milestone. More than a year’s creative work coming to its conclusion.

But, for me, there’s also an odd sense of grief. I don’t know what to do with myself.ย  I’m restless. My sense of time shifts; my focus suddenly flutters away. I can’t sit, can’t move on. The story that consumed my thoughts and hours is over. The pressure to write, to capture my characters’ thoughts and hearts and sacrifices before they slip away, dissipates. I know the story now from the beginning to the end. The characters I have lived with and come to love have nothing more to say to me. They journey into their futures without me. Inside my head, I’m… alone.

Writing is, for many, an emotional undertaking. I’ve felt this way with every first draft.

I finished my first draft on November 18th with an additional 26,722 words. My NaNoWriMo challenge is done. I’m grieving.

And prepping for the less intense application of my craft.

Do you have any emotional reaction to writing “The End?” I’d love to hear your thoughts.

 

 

194 thoughts on “Writing “The End”

  1. I’ve only written one book so far (called Chloe) and I self published it in December 2019. When I felt the story end part of me wondered if I should maybe write another chapter or two since it was only 30,000 words. I felt almost afraid to just let it end. I told the story I had wanted and it was done, to add more to it would have not felt right, so I let it end. In hindsight, maybe it was too short, maybe I should’ve kept editing…and rewriting…but it still feels right that I let it end. I was ready for it to end. I was ready to move forward on a new story. I still have my “maybe I should of” moments though.

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    • I’m glad you resisted, Brianna. I think the characters can tell with their story is done and the energy of the tale resolved. Readers can feel it too, so adding more text generally detracts. And stories take as long as they take. They’re magical that way. It’s one of the reasons that I question prescribed word-counts. Let go of the should-haves and write the next story waiting to come out. ๐Ÿ™‚ Congrats on your book and Happy Writing!

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      • Thanks for the encouragement! I appreciate it! I am beginning to sink into my next book (my memoir) and thinking I might need to do a fiction one as well to work on when the memoir is too hard to push through.

        I’m letting go of the should have dones now :).

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  2. smitchjack says:

    Do you all actually write, ‘The End’?

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  3. joylennick says:

    I know exactly how you feel, Diana. I too shed tears when I have to kill someone off; and am even sadder when I have to leave my characters for good. Most of us give so much of ourselves when we ‘compose/build’ a character, it’s like a little piece of us has been chipped away… Hugs xx

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  4. NEKNEERAJ says:

    I too felt a little sad and clueless when I completed my novel.

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    • Isn’t it funny how that happens? Some bloggers mentioned that it can happen anytime we complete something important to us that’s taken so much time and heart. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for the visit and comment and Happy Holidays. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  5. parkermccoy says:

    The end is always a little bittersweet. However, it’s a big relief, too. You may have more to do but you can say it’s been written from start to finish. There’s a great sense of accomplishment in that. Congratulations!

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    • Absolutely! Bittersweet is a great way to describe the feeling. I love writing “The End” despite how it also feels like a goodbye. Thanks for the visit and comment. Hope you have a wonderful holiday and marvelous new year. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  6. unruh561273 says:

    The drastic changes I made to my story after I thought I ended it the book shocked me, but then again I played a lot with my story cause I hadnโ€™t quite captured what I truly wanted. I still probably havenโ€™t but better than what I had before. The saying goes โ€œGood writing is rewriting.โ€ This is so very true ๐Ÿ‘

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    • “Good writing is rewriting.” Great saying. I’m in the rewriting phase now, cleaning up the mess. Ha ha. Drastic changes happen, particularly for pantsers. Good for you for doing the hard work of crafting. It will pay off in the end. Happy Writing!

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  7. I think you’ve summarized the emotional side of typing “The End” quite well! Then there are the few times when I say, “Whew! Finally done with that one.” Sometimes I feel burned out after spending months on a project (like now, can you tell? ๐Ÿ™‚ ) Congrats on finishing the draft!

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  8. Yes! You have hit that melancholy little nail right on the head. It’s a very similar emotional loss as the one I feel when getting to the end of a wonderful book and knowing that I have to leave the characters behind and go do something else. You will meet your characters again as you edit but the joy of their birth is never quite the same as in that first draft creation. It’s like the difference between being a mother and being a schoolteacher.

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    • I’m in the midst of rewriting now, Kathleen, so my sadness is over as I revisit them again. On the eighth draft, I’ll be sick of them. Ha ha. You are so right that even hitting the publish button isn’t the same as that feeling of letting go at the end of the first draft. It’s a strange melancholic disorienting loss. Thanks so much for the visit, and Happy Writing!

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      • It took me ten minutes to think of the exact right word instead of sad, and melancholy fits. It’s not grief, it’s not depression, just a wistful leaving behind of the feeling of making a new baby. Of course, since I write a lot of murder stories, I lose some of my characters no matter what, LOL. And you’re right, in one of my novels I am already sick to death of the MCs, just get going already, hahaha.

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  9. Daniel Kemp says:

    A very nice article.

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  10. Sarah says:

    I can only too well understand the emotional side of ending a creative project that has accompanied you for so long. Those characters are your friends, maybe even your children in a way and parting from them just hurts.
    When I finish a drawing or painting it’s fortunately not as emotional. Most of the time I’m just glad I made it, and more often than not I tend to see all the mistakes I made and couldn’t help doing at that point. So a finished painting always leaves me with the desire to make it better next time, and in a way, there’s no The End in it. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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  11. Sheron says:

    Amazing post! You capture so well how I feel. I’ve ended my long series and miss my characters and the feeling of solving the puzzle of how to write a novel well. That sense of production.
    There’s a restlessness that hopefully the excitement of the holidays will fill until my muse returns.
    Happy holidays to you and yours.

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  12. Ryan says:

    You put into words an affliction I’ve had for years! Although so far I only dabble with short stories, I get a weird sense of missing the characters, as though someone you got close with has come and gone. Awesome post!

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    • Yes, we get to know them, are intrigued and touched by them, and then they’re gone. It’s like they moved away and stopping emailing. Lol. I’m into the grind of rewrites and edits now, so my sadness is over. Thanks for the visit, Ryan. I noticed that your site is “in progress.” Be sure to stop back here at some point so I can check in and follow you. I’m looking forward to reading those characters that you struggle to let go of. Happy Writing.

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      • Ryan says:

        Haha; receiving the cold shoulder from the very people we create. Ah the good old grind, hello red pen my old friend, good luck! And yeah definitely, I literally just posted my first site so thanks for checking it out, well, trying! Happy grinding!

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  13. I just finished my first book on Friday… It feels good to have accomplished my goal and self published… But now I feel restless and my mind’s already working on the next story… But I’m determined to take this week off..

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    • Yes, take a week and enjoy the accomplishment. And the best way to recover from finishing a book is to start a new one — you got that right! Happy Writing!

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      • Thanks! It’s called CHLOE. It’s on the Barns and Noble website. Easy to find if you put my name in search area. Paperback and ebook formats… Formating paperback was…waaaay difficult! I feel anxious just thinking of putting another one up when I have a book ready again….

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  14. Reaching the end is a mixed blessing for me as well, although I don’t bother writing those two words. I well know that the end is many drafts away.

    For me the real cathartic time is clicking the publish button. That’s when I’ve decided the story is “grown up” enough to release into the world. Messing with it anymore will be counterproductive.

    Congrats on reaching the end of your draft, though. It’s definitely a milestone worth celebrating. : )

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  15. joylennick says:

    I know exactly how you feel, Diana, although I’ve only written one novel…Most of my other writing – apart from short stories and poetry – was factual: memoir, true adventure; humour, and articles.In the present book I’m writing, I have already shed tears over a few deaths….and just know I’ll miss it at its end… x

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    • Some bloggers mentioned the sense of loss after completing any large project that we’ve invested time and meaning into. That makes sense to me, so I’m not surprised that you’ve felt that strange disorientation. Good luck with your current writing, Joy. If you’re feeling it, so will your readers. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  16. Kintaricus says:

    I feel the same way when it comes to closing the story๐Ÿ˜ญ. I get the same connection for my characters, but when it’s time to say goodbye. It’s saying you’ll never see your best friend ever again๐Ÿ’”. Hopefully you can follow me while I continue creating more poetry and stories to broaden everybody’s mind and bring a smile to everybody’s faces!๐Ÿ˜€

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