Monochrome
My mother’s home
bows to the leaden clouds
through withering years
her gravity weights us
frail fingers of need
suspended from my shoulders
She clutches my arm
like a worn-out child
I bear without bending
but why do I feel
my feet have grown tap roots
and I cannot extract them
They are declining together
that house and she
sagging and creaking
water-marked and fractured
fragile veins of rusted pipes
crumbling the foundation of bones
Beauty requires altered eyes
the blurred half-distance of memory
a chorus of overlapping echoes
in party dresses and baby’s breath
when the decay of age was nothing
a coat of paint couldn’t hide
She has lost the sharp-edged borders
scarlet tulips and peach-rimmed roses
glories of the morning in royal blue
black-eyed Susans and apricot orchids
mums in the amber blaze of twilight
winter’s bittersweet
I will remember
her spring blossoms
ceding to blood red chrysanthemums
and garlands of evergreen
until the day I too fade
into monochrome
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I just got home from another visit to my parents. They’re doing fine but declining, especially my mother. This poem is bleaker than the real situation. It’s just the muse and image tugging me along. Thanks to Sue Vincent for another Thursday #Writephoto prompt. (I missed the deadline, but happily post this anyway.)
Nicely done! ❤
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Thank you. I’m heading up to see my mom again today – in full color. 🙂
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😀 !
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I’m so sorry to hear about your mother declining more and more, Diana! I partly know how hard this is to watch, I was a wreck when my mum broke her arm last year and looked so frail in her pain. She’s much better now and I’m so happy for her. I wish you as many wonderful moments to spend with yours as possible! It’s good to know that they live closer to you now.
I really love your poem, and especially the stanza about what beauty requires – so poignant and beautiful. ❤
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Thanks, Sarah. I seem to be traveling up to see my parents every couple of weeks. (I’m overseeing their medical needs.) All is going well and we’re finding time for laughs and enjoyment too. Thanks for the visit, my friend! I’m so glad you enjoyed the poem. 😀
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So sorry to hear this about your mother, Diana – sending hugs your way!
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It’s hard to tell sometimes how she’s doing, Teri. Good days and bad days. But it’s great having her near. Thanks for stopping by to read. I hope you had a fabulous Mother’s Day. 🙂
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Many hugs for you, Diana…especially on this Mother’s Day weekend. It’s quite a journey for a daughter and a mother, a relationship that’s mostly complicated, yet deep and profound. I feel tears in my heart as I am reading this…❤️
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Yes, “complicated, yet deep and profound.” I can vouch for that. I won’t see her this weekend, but will be back up there in about 10 days. Thanks for the visit, my friend, and the kind thoughts. ❤
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This is an amazing poem Diana. Heart felt and true. 🙂 x
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Thanks for the kind comment, Marje. Poetry seems to be my way of processing these changes. ❤ I'm so please that you liked the poem. 🙂 Have a wonderful weekend!
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My pleasure Diana. I’m trying to write a poem about aging too but finding it very difficult. Have a great weekend too. 🙂
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I’m sure you’ll come up with something wonderful, Marje. It’s a topic that is full of emotion, and if we’re lucky, we’ll all have to deal with it one way or another.
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So sad. A reminder, however, that we will all go through the sunset of our lives. Makes me think of the house I grew up in and that my dad sold last fall. It wasn’t in rough shape, but so many memories! Sorry to hear your mother is declining. Don’t forget to take care of yourself!
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I remember when your dad finally moved from your childhood home, Julie, and how sad it was for you. But you’re right, loss is part of life and our only choice is how we do it. Thanks for the lovely comment. Happy Weekend and Happy Mother’s Day.
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You as well!
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Oh dear. I’m sitting here with tears streaming down my face, Diana. No, I don’t think it’s bleaker than the ‘real’ situation. I think it’s flowing words written in an intense dark-flower-filled poem that is sharp with reality. Thank you for writing it. I’m off to visit my mom next week, and your poem will be etched in my heart and soul.
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Thank you, Pam. Now you’ve made me cry! Those visits are everything, and I’m so glad to have my parents near during this time. These are hours to fill with love and tenderness. They’re gifts. I hope you have a wonderful time with your mom. ❤ Hugs.
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Diana, a powerful poem that draws the reader in … full of colourful imagery in a world of monochrome. Real-life events can often be the spark of a fictional work which then takes its own imagined route. A deep sense of calm and acceptance here … seeing the past in the present. Glad you have more opportunity to visit your parents – a blessing for you all. Hugs xx
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Thanks for the sweet comment, Annika. Real life is often my spark for poems. 🙂 Prose on the other hand… the imagination can go a little off-kilter 🙂 Yes, acceptance and calm are good descriptions of how I feel. I’m so relieved to have my parents close by now. It’s a blessing to be able to spend these last months/years with them. Hugs back at you. ❤
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Melancholy yet beautiful Diana. I read it as though you wrote metaphors about your mom. And then you added the little note. Beautiful. ❤
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Thanks for the lovely comment, Debby. Yes, you caught those metaphors. My parents are still adjusting to the move and I hope things will improve as they’re a little less disoriented. It’s nice having them close so I can help. 🙂
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As long as they have you around they will adjust. Moving from a home they’ve spent most of their lives in, especially at their age takes a lot of adjustment. I am sure they are happy to be near you now, ❤
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The house must served your parents well throughout the years, Diana. There are so many memorable moments, I’m sure. This poem sure has vivid imagery of the journey it’s gone through. Sorry to hear your mom is not doing well. You have helped them moved just in time to care for them! ❤
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Thanks, Miriam. This house, of course, wasn’t theirs, but the image made me think about the way all things gradually decline including all of us. And you’re so right that it’s lovely to have my parents near. 😀
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Yes, Diana, I understand well of how good it is to have your parents near. One sister took the major responsibility for caring my parents. I went to see them once in a while before they passed. 🙂
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It is a sad poem, in ways, but also filled with unavoidable truths. Thanks for sharing!
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Well said, Jan. Yes, unavoidable truths that we all experience, ready or not. Another reason to be present and make the most of our time together. Thanks so much for stopping by to read. ❤
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Beautiful and certainly I see shades of my mother’s slow decline over the last ten years or so, the need for the comfort and safety of familiar territory and people. But I was amazed at the resilience and strength of the human spirit and having you visit would have given a great boost. My mother was 94 and still getting herself up and dressed with jacket and makeup to face each day. As you say plenty of room for love and laughter… ♥
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Thanks, Sally. The great thing about having my parents closer now, is that I can spend a lot more time with them. I can help with chores and doctors, but also have fun. And 94 is amazing. I doubt my mom has that much time, but you never know! ❤
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A beautiful, if sad, poem. I was lucky not to see my mother go through such a decline. She was 80 when she passed, but had been active up to the end. It must be so hard to watch.
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Thank you for the kind comment, V. It is sad, but also a chance to be “present” and fill our days with fun and love. I don’t regret the opportunity as hard as it can sometimes be. Have a wonderful day!
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My Dad’s been gone for many years now, but I thought of him today, and what I remembered was that one good thing, no matter how small, can add a splash of colour to the day. I hope your Mum’s days each have a splash of colour. Yours too.
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Thanks for the lovely comment and wish, Andrea. We are still splashing color everywhere we can. We had pedicures last Sunday! (my first one ever). Every smile I can get from her is a gift. ❤
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That sounds wonderful! -hugs hugs-
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Beautifully poignant
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Thanks, Derrick. I’m glad you enjoyed this one. The prompt pulled it out of me, and fortunately the reality is still filled with colorful flowers. 🙂
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Beautiful and sad… a wonderful read, really. You always write from the heart, and more so here. What can I say, I really loved this poem.
when the decay of age was nothing
a coat of paint couldn’t hide — “sigh”
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Thank you, Basilike for the beautiful comment. I’m glad you liked the poem and that line. 🙂 The reality isn’t quite this bleak, fortunately. We’re still enjoying lots of flowers. Have a wonderful day, my friend. ❤
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I’m happy in this occasion reality is better than your imagination, Diana! I’m sending you love!
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Ooo very moving piece. I love the correlation between fading colour and ageing. Poignant and sad. I do hope your parents pick up a bit after settling in ❤️
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Thanks for stopping by, Jess. It’s only been a month, so there’s some settling in yet to happen. At least they’re now unpacked! I’m glad you enjoyed the poem. 🙂
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This is exceptionally beautiful and yet so sad, Diana. I’ll add it to the round-up. Deadlines are flexible around here 😉
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Thank you, Sue. I knew I was late, but went with it anyway once the poem came to me. Yeah, a sad one, but we’re not quite there yet either. Still enjoying the garden. 🙂
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Everything in its season… for all of us. 🙂
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The power of your descriptive writing is extremely evident. The fading theme of color is so heartbreaking to me. I can’t imagine a stronger tribute to love, than “I bear without bending”. May your dear memories of her garden, and her vibrance continue to be a place of comfort.
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Thanks, Ethan. The prompt took me to a darker place than we currently occupy, but my mom is definitely on the decline. We’re plugging along though and filling her days with as much pleasure as possible. Including flowers!
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Ah Diana… this is poignant and beautiful. Thank you for your strength and compassion — and for sharing these lovingly expressed thoughts with us. Hugs on the wing.
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Thanks, Teagan. I’m trying to make some room for writing and prompts help me focus a little these days. I’m so glad you liked this. Hugs back at you. 🙂
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This hit hard and home Diana. I remember feeling this way about my grandmother. In my memories she is young. As your mother is in yours – which is why this decline is so painful. Your poetry is so beautiful and vivid and wistful. Sending you all the love, and to your mother too.
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Thanks, Lenora. A lovely comment. Yes, this can apply to all those who slowly decline before our eyes. I’m glad it moved you and I appreciate your kind words. ❤
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I’ve been through aging and illness with my parents. Reading your poem caused flashes of memory of those times and of struggles from all involved. Your stanza “I will remember
her spring blossoms…” brought tears to my eyes. Beautiful writing.
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Thanks, Mary. The poem shifted a bit from the house to the garden, but I went with it and overall am satisfied. I’m so glad you found it moving, and I can imagine that many of us can relate. My mom may have weeks or years, but I’m hoping not to waste them either way. Thanks for the lovely comment, my friend.
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Reblogged this on anita dawes and jaye marie.
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Thank you so much for sharing, Jaye Marie and Anita. I missed Sue’s deadline and this is just as sweet! I’m glad you enjoyed the poem. ❤
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I am glad you posted it anyway!
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Beautiful, Diana, and the metaphor was brilliantly executed. It’s tough to watch the decline of those you love. Warm wishes.
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Thanks for stopping by to read, JD. It is so hard, but part of life. It’s our choice about how we go about it, and I’m doing my best to make it serene and full of kindness and love. ❤ I'm glad you enjoyed the poem.
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Beautiful! This line especially struck me, “the blurred half-distance of memory”
I cannot say why, but it did!
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Thanks so much for reading and commenting, Kevin. I appreciate it. You know how some lines are just right the first time and others you have to rewrite 20 times? That one was just right. Thanks!
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Always a pleasure!
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Diana your poem is so moving and your reality also moves me – deeply. I read your comments on your intentions for your mother’s final days with deep appreciation for the woman you are – and for the love that lives between you and your mother. ❤
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Thank you, Pauline. The reality isn’t as grim as the poem, but it’s been a tough 8-9 months. She could be around for a week or years, but she is struggling, so I’m there and honored to walk the path with her. 🙂 I so appreciate your kind words, my friend. ❤
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Beautifully written Diana.” Your feet growing taproots “. Attached to your roots, it’s hard to let go…..of the house….of your mother….of memories. Very nostalgic.
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Thanks, Len. My folks recently moved to be nearer to us, so their house is gone… and honestly, good riddance 🙂 Now, we’re enjoying some slow time and filling our days together with as much fun and love as possible. Thanks for the lovely comment and I’m glad you liked the poem. 😀
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This is a beautiful rendering of the fading that is aging. We do become more monochrome on the outside, but the inside still holds the vibrant tones of memories I think. (K)
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What a lovely statement. 🙂 Yes, there is not only the vibrant tones of memories but the ongoing presence of love. ❤ Thanks for swinging by to read, Kerfe. Your comment is much appreciated.
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Superbly done Diana! Your words reached the deepest cords of my heart, I couldn’t help when a lump formed in my throat…this is the story of each home and each one of us. I wish and pray for a peaceful end to the glorious life of our ageing mothers, our first emotional anchors. Love and hugs dear friend.
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Thank you, Balroop, that means a lot coming from a poet such as yourself. I’m glad my poem moved you. I’m in no hurry to say goodbye to my mom, so lots of traveling north in the months to come. Thanks for the love and hugs. Have a wonderful day. 😀
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So delicate, this is beautifully written. I’m so sorry about your parents. I’m lucky to still have mine with me, but they’re in their 70s and seeing health decline is beyond painful. I’m glad they have you there for them, I’m sure they’re glad for that and you’ll want to be spending as much time with them as you can. 🌷
Caz x
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Thank you, Caz. I’m glad you liked my poem. My parents are in their late 80s and my mom never fully recovered from an illness last autumn – thus the worries and rapid decline. I’m spending as much time as possible with them. 🙂 I appreciate your kind comment. ❤ Have a wonderful day.
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This poem is very sad, Diana. I hope my parents never become monochrome.
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Thanks for reading, Robbie. My mom is blind but fortunately still sees bright blurry colors! At the same time life is narrowing and becoming more of a struggle. As her health fails, my hope is to fill each day I’m with her with love. ❤
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Beautifully touching and evocative Diana. It expressed the fading of life, beauty, flowers, and homes so well. I’m glad you’re getting to spend time with your mom. Yes, it’s hard to see our loved ones aging. I’m going to visit and help my mother in a week and will face the same issues.
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I’m glad you were moved by the poem, Brad, and wish you a wonderful time with your mom. I find that dealing with one thing at a time is key – we keep things slow and peaceful that way. I’ll be going back in 2 weeks for more doc appointments and hopefully more smiles. 🙂
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Good tip about one thing at a time. Thanks Diana.
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This is really beautiful. Sad, but beautiful. Hard to see our parents ageing, but it comes to all of us, if we’re lucky enough to live that long. Love the poem!
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Thank you, Anneli. Yes, a journey we all will take if we’re blessed with a long life. I’m glad you enjoyed the poem. Have a lovely afternoon and Happy Writing!
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Thanks, Diana. Do hope it’s not too tough on your poor Mom. That’s one of the hardest things about ageing, seeing your friends and families suffer. It certainly makes you appreciate every precious moment, nature and love..Hugs xx
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We went for pedicures, Joy, so trying to fill our time together with fun and special moments too. 🙂
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Oh Diana! You do have a gift with your words, and what a gift! You took me on a journey, but simultaneously allow me to enter your narrative and navigate freely … Gorgeous!❤️
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Thanks so much for stopping by to read, Sonia, and for the lovely comment. This poem doesn’t feel quite finished to me, but I’m glad it spoke to you. Have a wonderful day, my friend. ❤
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Wonderfully evocative. I loved the inclusion of all the flower names. It reminded me of my grandmother and the roses she grew. The idea of the house and your mother declining together worked really well in the poem I thought.
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Thank you, Joanne. I wanted to add some color before “fading to black” and what better way to do it than with flowers. I too associate grandmothers and flowers. 🙂 Have a lovely colorful day!
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A sagging elegant house, what a perfect metaphor.
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I wasn’t exactly planning it that way, but it evolved that way. Thanks so much for visiting and commenting, Greg. I post your story tomorrow morning first thing. 🙂
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This is so beautifully melancholic and moving. It’s just amazing.
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Thanks, Holly. I’m usually pretty positive, but it’s impossible not to notice the changes and decline. I’m just staying focused on the love. ❤
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I have been there Diane, it’s not easy. You have e pressed it so movingly, this really goes to the heart. ❤
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This really resonates with me, Diana. ❤
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I know that you’ve been dealing with the challenges of aging parents too, Jill, so I’m not really surprised. *Sigh* It’s hard, but in a way, fulfilling to be able to help and fill their hours with love. Thanks for stopping by to read. ❤
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Crafted images – ones visual and the feeling of it all.
I love this line “my feet have grown tap roots
and I cannot extract them”
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Thanks for stopping by to read. Yeah, I’m feeling fairly “planted” in the physical needs of caregiving right now, even though I’m 3 hours away. It’s going to get more intensive before long. I’m glad you enjoyed the poem. 🙂
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People in my family live well into their 90’s and beyond. It is difficult especially if they have been so independent all their lives. The fading of the landscape and house was so familiar. Rest and enjoy small beauty when you can
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Yeah, giving up their independence has been huge, but necessary.
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A great analogy between the two aged beauties. Very well done. I’m glad the reality isn’t quite do bleak. With my parents in their 80s, I can understand (both relatively healthy). (Since Sue does her wrap up on Thursday, I’m sure she’ll make an exception for being a little late 😉 )
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I missed the deadline, but no sweat. I still wanted to write something. 🙂 Thanks for the lovely comment, Trent, and so glad to hear that your parents still enjoy good health! Yay for that!
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What a brilliant wordsmith you are Diana…I felt the sad/ sharp edge of your words as I’m probably older than your mama. But still think ‘wine’ and not bananas….(Am mentally 40.) xx
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Thanks for the lovely comment, Joy. I’m glad you’re not bananas! Ha. My mom is still fairly sharp, though she’s blind now and physically in tough shape. We’re taking things month by month. ❤
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Described so beautifully Diana.
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Thank you, Helene. It’s the focus of much of my time right now. I appreciate the visit and comment. ❤
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My focus is being with my husband who resides in a nursing home (he is 86). It is not always an easy time but so very rewarding. Enjoy your parents. You must be loved and appreciated many fold. ❤
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Perfect way to state it, Helene – not always an easy time but so very rewarding. 😀
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declining, as are we all
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Yes, we all will face that point where we can’t seem to pull it together anymore. Fortunately, there’s plenty of room for love amidst the physical decline. Thanks for the visit, Michael. ❤
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